tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32029535377171164202024-03-05T03:31:34.183-05:00Chardale's Curious JourneyGypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.comBlogger83125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-32748617418764479212016-05-07T03:21:00.000-04:002016-05-07T03:21:13.012-04:00M.E. And Me<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
August 8th was International Severe M.E. Day. (Myalgic Encephelomyelitis). I have had this illness for 19 years with 8 years of partial remission from using probiotics and bovine colostrum to heal my gut and boost my immune system.<br />
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I'm not in remission anymore and the viral load that has plagued me roams mostly unchallenged in my body and my brain.</div>
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In 2012 a bronchoscope confirmed I have Herpes Simplex I in my lungs. Between 2012 and 2014 the flares occurred throughout my body - lungs, stomach, inside my left hip, the upper part of my neck and then finally it moved into my brain.</div>
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Since then there is less specific pain but I have started having episodes - like TIAs -as the virus does lobectomies in my cerebellum. I don't know how long it will take, how far it will go or what it will take with it. I have yet to find a doctor with any idea of how herpes works in the non- HIV herpes world.</div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-41690313387643920442016-05-07T03:19:00.001-04:002016-05-07T03:19:41.692-04:00Teen Night at the Grizzly Rose<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I'm just home from what I thought was a chaperone effort with my friend Jeanne; her daughter S. at the Grizzly Rose Saloon in Denver, CO. S. Is 14 and I used to party and dance at the saloon back in the day so I thought it would be a teeny bopper sleaze show. I mean that's how I treated it back then so I just extrapolated that it was sleaze bag training.<br />
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And yes it was just like that with everyone but S. There was no moping around as a wall flower or overcompensating by line dancing until your mascara sweated off by this girl.</div>
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First she danced the swing with her mom to about 5 songs. Then she rode the mechanical bull while I held the table. Then she insisted I come back into the roping room so she could show me how to rope. </div>
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About roping: it's kind of ridiculous that I spent my whole life around livestock and rodeos and no one thought to teach me how to rope. Especially because I hit one horn of three of the four tries. S. is a beginner </div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-65222796455342571672014-12-20T17:56:00.001-05:002016-05-07T03:17:36.400-04:00#HealingThroughNutrition: Turmeric!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Turmeric. The most under-utilized spice with medicinal qualities in our kitchen cabinet.<br />
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I just learned: Turmeric is fat soluble. There are also capsules sold that may be easier on the stomach</div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-36265084519989397512014-10-31T23:10:00.001-04:002016-05-07T03:18:08.042-04:00Misconduct Complaint Filed With Utah Bar Against Attorney Lorie Fowlke<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Lorie Fowlke in her own Affidavit, shown as, Evidence “A”, to conceal, made misrepresentations to newly assigned Judge Mcdade, about what statements she made on May 16th 2013. Lorie Fowlke’s Affidavit Paragraph 4 she falsely stated; </div>
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”On May 16, 2013 during oral argument in this case I indicated words to the effect that none of the parties had signed a declaration of paternity. At that time, to my knowledge, this was accurate.” </div>
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On May 16th 2013, Lorie Fowlke actually stated:</div>
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“As a matter of fact, in 302 and 303, which is a voluntary declaration of paternity provision, it specifically says that father’s [Adam Mackley’s] voluntary declaration of paternity is void unless Mr. Barney, the presumed father, files a denial of paternity, which of course has not happened in this case.” </div>
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The fact is “Mr. Barney” Voluntarily signed the Denial of Paternity and did it with out my knowledge. Evidence “C” Also, July 2012 in court, the Voluntary Declaration of Paternity form, was handed to me in front of Lorie Fowlke, I filled out the sections; Name, Address, and Social Security Number, and then I handed it back to Adrienne, in front of Lorie Fowlke.</div>
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Statements have been continuously crafted to avoid, conceal and misrepresent the facts about this legal document, in doing so, constructively admitting to the knowledge of the Voluntary Declaration of Paternity, the Voluntary Denial of Paternity by Presumed Father and verifies there legal validity. </div>
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Lorie Fowlke’s Affidavit Paragraph 7 she falsely stated;</div>
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“At no time did anyone involved in these two cases, including Adam Mackley, indicate to counsel that a Declaration of paternity had been executed.” </div>
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“But I signed the VDP.” </div>
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“…[Adam Mackley’s] voluntary declaration of paternity is void unless Mr. Barney, the presumed father, files a denial of paternity, which of course has not happened in this case.”</div>
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Also On February 7th 2013. The Declaratory Judgment Case number <a href="tel:134400322" x-apple-data-detectors-result="5" x-apple-data-detectors-type="telephone" x-apple-data-detectors="true">134400322</a> was, made the specific request;</div>
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“…requiring Adam Mackley to withdraw his declaration of paternity from the Utah Bureau of Vital Statistics.” Evidence “D”</div>
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On June 26, 2013, and again on August 22, 2013 Lorie Fowlke, in bad faith, filed proposed Order Granting Motion to Dismiss and Findings of Fact, Conclusions of Law, falsely indicating that the court ruled to dismiss my Case <a href="tel:114402136" x-apple-data-detectors-result="6" x-apple-data-detectors-type="telephone" x-apple-data-detectors="true">114402136</a>. Evidence “E”. The court did not rule on any motion to dismiss ever. And at the hearing on May 16, 2013, the trial court made a ruling on the declaratory Judgment. The court ordered Colton's attorney only, to prepare an order. 5/16/13 Tr. at p. 48.. In 9, 10. The court further stated, </div>
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“That order then does not apply to case No. 114402136”. 5/16/13 Tr. at p. 48,, ln 17. </div>
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Further the Motion to Dismiss was not before the court on May 16th 2013, because my case which held the motion, was stayed. On July 1st 2013, Lorie Fowlke persuaded court clerk Trina to transfer the Motion to Dismiss, from my case to the Declaratory Judgment Case and change the dates from February 4th 2013 to February 7th 2013. Evidence “F”.</div>
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Lorie Fowlke, will likely misrepresent the facts regarding this complaint, the much of the misconduct described, herein is newly before the (OPC), and all of it, is involving misrepresentations made to new Judge. Also the facts of the case is that Declaratory Judgment’s by design, can not be used legally to rescind a Voluntary Declaration of Paternity or Voluntary Denial of Paternity by Presumed Father, nor can it be used as res judicata to dismiss my paternity case, instead the Declaratory Judgment and courts ruling on May 16th 2013, only identifies that the correct presumed father, in fact, signed the Voluntary Denial of Paternity, legally validating my Voluntary Declaration of Paternity to my Daughter.</div>
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Lorie Fowlke, has made countless misrepresentations directly to the court, causing hardships to my family, extensive unnecessary litigation, and gross miscarriage of justice, </div>
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5th day of flare<br />
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Neck and spine health are flared. </div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-38536071692961534892014-09-19T19:03:00.001-04:002016-05-07T03:20:22.826-04:00Putting Music To My Anger<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Leave it to my deep subconscious to pick a song, and I love to sing, to attach the feelings to from my struggles with my health due to the neuro immune illness MEcfs and my son Adam Mackley's struggle to get his legal paternity recognized in Utah to get my granddaughter Cadance back, that has notes I will NEVER be able to hit. (The was the world's longest sentence EVER)<br />
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Starting mid December of 2013, while very ill and destroyed from a trip I made to Utah to help ensure Adam's case could be appealed, this randomly selected song would bring me from a deep sleep and wake me with an ever louder shout of 'Natalie'. I would be hearing 'Natalie' screamed in rage by Bruno Mars from the inside out. It wouldn't stop til I got up and badly sang some bars & danced a bit of a jig. I know it's a fanciful fantasy but I imagine myself to be dancing just as energetically and rhythmically as his backup and band. (Hey! It's the ME version of dancing so back up there;)</div>
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The truth is I would put my rage about my illness and the horrific neglect and treatment by the medical profession, governments and society I've received, to this music if I could! And my nog on advocacy for the rights of birth fathers. There's a selfish piece there: that's my granddaughter Cadance they stole. I want and long for her to get back to us before my illness takes me out. </div>
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So my technology challenges are keeping you from hearing my badly sung version I've retitled simple: M.E. It might be a gift actually:)</div>
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As I listened to the song today I keyed in on the ominous percussion and angry voice - so angry that when you sing about what you would do if you got your hands on the source of your anger the only way you can describe what you would do is sing 'Woooo' in a high pitch. And it's funny because that is the one hard note I CAN hit.</div>
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So I will keep listening to this song until it's work is done. And thank you Bruno Mars. </div>
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PS. If this post seems familiar it's because I've written about this before. So now....it will either seem like I'm further along in my journey to express my anger in a healthy way or I will be seen as obsessed with Bruno Mars. We will see how this goes;)</div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-72430417176571134682014-09-13T14:51:00.001-04:002016-05-07T03:20:49.498-04:00Grandmother With Terminal Illness Fears She May Never See GranddaughterAgain<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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A Florida grandmother, who is in endstage ME (Myalgicdt Encephelomyelitis), is on a pilgrimage back to the mountain states where she was raised and where she raised her own children. Chardale Irvine, or Grandma Char as she's known to her grandkids is back to see and connect with her 7 grandchildren and their parents. As of now she's seen all 6 boys, ages 11 weeks to age 13 but the visit with her granddaughter may not happen in time.</div>
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Her almost 3 year old granddaughter, Cadance Barney, has been withheld from Mrs Irvine's son, Adam Mackley, for over 18 months. She was taken at age 14 months with the support of a corrupt Utah Family Law Court system and Cadance's mother's family, who are apparently willing to invest any amount of money to make sure Cadance's biological father is not a part of her life.</div>
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This is what they weren't prepared for: Cadance's biological father, Adam Mackley, who has made monumental efforts to demonstrate that he has the full intention and desire to be in his daughter's life, will not stop fighting to be able to function as Cadance's father again. Why would a father go to such lengths? Because he doesn't want Cadance to ever think she's not loved or worth fighting for. Because in those 14 months with her a permanent bond formed, as it only can with fathers and their children. That bond over these last 18 months represents an open and deep wound that can't be healed for him until he gets his daughter back. And Mrs Irvine has tried to support him in every way she can though her progressing illness has severely impeded that. </div>
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The truth is Adam has had legal problems but in America even people in prison are allowed visitation with their children. This is largely because studies have shown that when children are able to have a relationship with their biological father, regardless of the father's circumstances, it helps the child immensely. Direct results show male children grow up with fewer legal challenges and female children have a much lower percentage of promiscuity and better self-esteem if they have access to their father.</div>
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Cadance was born with significant birth defects in her hips and legs. She had her left foot amputated by doctors at Shriners Hospital in Salt Lake City at 10 months to prepare to receive a prosthesis. Adam did the first three days of her post op care at his home and brought her to Shriners for her post op follow up. </div>
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With little medical acknowledgement of her own illness until very recently, Mrs. Irvine's health has significantly deteriorated. As the illness continues to cause irreversible brain damage, she fears Cadance may never know who her Grandma Char is and this walkabout to bond with her grandkids before it is too late holds an open and gaping void with no way, thus far, to see Cadance.</div>
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What would Grandma Char want Cadance to know? That she is loved beyond measure by a whole family, some of whom she has met and many more that she hasn't yet met. That her dad and her grandma will not give up in their efforts to bring her back to this family. That Cadance comes from a family of courageous, adventurous and creative travelers, whose people are beautiful, strong, creative and intelligent.</div>
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This little girl, who looks just like her dad, who looks just like his mom (and twin brother), who looks just like her dad, has a place set at our table and in our hearts. This family wants her to know that it doesn't matter how long we are kept away or how far away we are in miles, she is a part of our family.</div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-90428699584214001132014-06-21T04:57:00.001-04:002014-10-22T18:06:59.505-04:00Thomas Patton: Still the most horrific UT court officer<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I won't post a lot. A lot has been said on this blog about how Mr.Patton single-handedly staged the kidnapping of my granddaughter Cadance Belle Barney and then his actions were pencil whipped by a judge that sent the cases right into State Appeals court, which is where it is now. It is awesome that my son Adam Mackley has been able to keep the cases afloat against all odds but daunting in that he still has no lawyer defending him. But he fights on until the last possible breath and I have his back 100%.<br>
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What this post is about is some pondering that I have been doing. Why is my Thomas Patton post my most heavily viewed post on my blog? Why is his name the most common search word for hits and why, mostly why, do I keep getting story after story how he's ruined family's lives by his nonsensical and cruel decisions? How is this man still allowed to oversee family law cases?<br>
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Take note Mr Patton: I miss all of my grandchildren who I see little of due to health but the ache that is caused from that beautiful little girl taken from her dad, her brother, her great aunt, her cousins, her great grandpa, will not heal until we get her back.<br>
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Maybe as a common voice our kids have a chance.<br>
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Btw it is possible to leave an anonymous comment on my blog and if you favorite me you'll get an update with new posts. I'm not a robo poster so you went get tons of notifications from me.<br>
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God/Spirit/Universe bless you all and an extra blessing to those stolen children and their grieving hearts and grieving parents.<br>
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5/31/14 I woke up angry and resentful that I awoke in pain AGAIN. Nearly 20 years of this - some days I struggle to find a reason to get up but usually something very basic drives me from bed. I need to pee. I have to admit there have been days I have considered just peeing the bed but I'm not so far gone to think through the consequences of that. Sometimes I do wait too long to get up and that results in a change of clothes. There are times when I wake up with the urge a little late and the insipid pain from the exertion of lying down to standing up results in a stress relief loss of urine (that's the medical term for it). During these last two years of major injuries and surgeries I have come to almost expect this to happen and when it doesn't I do kind of a pee pee happy dance in my head.<br />
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Last year I underwent testing for pelvic floor prolapse. For those who don't know it is common for women who have previously given birth who are in or beyond menopause to start having stuff in our abdomens start trying to fall out. Bladder prolapse, uterine prolapse, rectal prolapse or if they are all trying to fall out at the same time they call it pelvic floor prolapse.<br />
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The reason this happens is that without estrogen our tissues and tendons thin out and become weaker. The stresses of previous pregnancies are then pronounced. And stuff tries to fall out. This can result in pain during sex, difficulty urinating or completely emptying the bladder and difficulty in bearing down during bowel movements. Or so I read.<br />
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It's a very old injury so the doctor didn't think repairing at this point would help much but seeing it there it made a lot of my lower back problems make sense and 'esplained' some things I'd been wondering about. Out loud at times to doctors but always dismissed. I had noticed a pattern of exacerbated pain about 12 hours prior to needing to poo. If I was trying to do something physical during that time it would result in a major event of pain and recovery. If not the pain would scream in and then leave a little later. It would be gone by the time the need to poo came so it was sort of a vague observation and connection.<br />
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So since I wasn't prolapsing but had the obvious weakness from the tear I began vajajay training. Funny thing too because I had always secretly taken great pride in how well trained and worked out my vajajay was but there I was with electrodes up in there with me trying to make the dolphin on the computer screen jump out of the water.<br />
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I have to admit that was one lazy ass, limp dolphin with my vajajay in the driver's seat. I live in Florida right now and I see dolphins a lot and my computer screen dolphin would not even be ALLOWED amongst those dolphins except maybe as one to laugh at.<br />
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I went through the whole training and never made him?/her? jump. It would just barely surface so at least it got to breathe. I left after six weeks feeling let down by my vajajay's lackluster show and then for the next six weeks angry because things seemed to be WORSE than before vajajay training. I even called and complained about this (ya wouldn't you have loved to be listening to THAT conversation?) and the vajajay training tech assured me that was common while my body figured out what to do with all the newly sparked nerve signal pathways. Because, oh yes! I remembered the doctor had told me my success/failure would depend on how and if nerve signaling could be improved.<br />
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And then!!! Six weeks later everything clicked and started working together and better. I even went so far as to take my pee pee happy dance verbal by commenting about it to my husband and my sister<br />
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Kind of like you right now. Reaching the end of this post and thinking, asking, beseeching - did I REALLY need to know all of that?<br />
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And in the words of my daughter Kaycee Lalalalala STOP!! Lalalalala.<br />
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-85979156855979933502014-05-23T04:24:00.001-04:002014-05-23T04:30:11.648-04:00I Just Need To Lie Down Constant MantraAmazing descriptions and explanations and/or theories have emerged onto the ME/CFS landscape in this last year. I am mostly jumping for joy and feeling relief and hope but sometimes, i do admit, I sit in anger and resentment that it took this long. But that will be my own journey to grieve and figure out.<div><br></div><div>The one description/reason for the 18 year old mantra playing constantly in my head has been explained and thus validated. I called it fatigue, never feeling comfortable with describing it as a message or mantra for fear it would push my mental illness diagnosis even further into an even more severe diagnosis.</div><div><br></div><div>"I just need to lie down" is a message that the vagus nerve sends the brain when we have an infection, virus or even some parasites. It says "Hey brain we got something serious going on down here so our girl is going to have to lie down and rest so we have time and extra available energy to send in the immune system to fight it off.</div><div><br></div><div>So all these years of questioning myself, "Maybe I am lazy", maybe I am just chronically depressed because I couldn't get two steps away from the mantra, now have been put to bed.</div><div><br></div><div>That is a sick behavior drivn by the brain and immune system to get optimal conditions for repair. Did all that heeding to the message actually help me? I'm not sure. I just know it feels good to have a solid phsysiological explanation for that key component of my illness - maybe the most disabling feature of all.</div><div><br></div><div>So now, until a treatment or cure is developed for my illness and can be honoring and thanking my severely and unexlainably compomised non HIV immune system for continuing to try to work. I commit to it and my sister Sherone that I will be working to honor it and not giving up hope.</div><div><br></div><div>It is called "neuropathological sick behavior' caused by an acute or subacute infection of the brain, spinal column or vagus nerve. Here is a link to a more comprehensive description: </div><div><a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/12615196/">http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/12615196/</a></div><div><br></div><div>And here's an 8 min video clip of an attempt to do a day but ended up lying down again: </div><div><br></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWpDeD3GH4ubwxPMbI4WbDXtwLi95p2KqcBYtBFSvJtUrY3ZNURetmF6OQXnSMb6oP2tzOHjrSWSnphQ6vnzKKsxcVjMpgoREEZevFzNk7bHQcbmq0EpTr2yGAABQaACQ0VMubxJ5VoBY/s640/blogger-image--309605679.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWpDeD3GH4ubwxPMbI4WbDXtwLi95p2KqcBYtBFSvJtUrY3ZNURetmF6OQXnSMb6oP2tzOHjrSWSnphQ6vnzKKsxcVjMpgoREEZevFzNk7bHQcbmq0EpTr2yGAABQaACQ0VMubxJ5VoBY/s640/blogger-image--309605679.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Peace be with you and all that jazz!</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Copyright 2013 (c) Chardale Irvine. All rights reserved.</div></div>GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-79988272399889719902014-04-12T05:51:00.001-04:002014-04-12T05:51:52.542-04:00CDC Stalling and Diverting Funds for ME/CFS Research<div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Dr Vincent Rocanilla is a colleague of Dr Ian Lipkin at Columbia University.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvtnTgj7Lmo3Dxy7n6GePJwvMY9Qml4wzHsYFr04KwWbPQD6eG9s-iRL5dluMqOQe2aYgpamEmSaaS6UohvVghSJmmGGMXhZjRnd0lp7qNIad16jCXS5VQxt-rUfGA-z4ierIfs2B4nu4/s640/blogger-image-1765892812.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvtnTgj7Lmo3Dxy7n6GePJwvMY9Qml4wzHsYFr04KwWbPQD6eG9s-iRL5dluMqOQe2aYgpamEmSaaS6UohvVghSJmmGGMXhZjRnd0lp7qNIad16jCXS5VQxt-rUfGA-z4ierIfs2B4nu4/s640/blogger-image-1765892812.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">They have research ready to promote and no funding. They are crowdfunding to hasten accessibility to patients and doctors (and the evil pharma - keep an eye on how this plays out but first watch the movies: Dallas Buyers Club and Constant Gardner.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Please support Dr Lipken's research and send a strong message to politicians and pharma that we CAN go around them. Your financial support does that. Here's the link: </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="http://www.microbediscovery.org/">http://www.microbediscovery.org/</a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Even as all this happens I fight to find a doctor who knows anything about my illness. The only doctor in Florida, Dr Nancy Klimas, at Nova Southeastern, doesn't accept my federal Blue Criss insurance, has a 200 person wait list And will cost me out of pocket up front between $1800 and $300 cold, hard cash that I don't have. Double that for my husband who also has the illness - onset 3 yrs ago.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Verified test results:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Low IGg immune system factor</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">High blood titers on all herpes viruses except one</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Confirmed diagnosis of Disseminated Herpes Simplex 1 in my lungs from a bronchoscope </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">4 sleep studies over 8 years that show zero stage 3 and 4 sleep - so no cell repair hormone HGH</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Confirmed irregular heartbeat</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Severe multiple chemical sensitivity</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I have 100% of the recognized symptoms, the best insurance money can buy and yet I still don't have an officially recognized illness.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I have all this now and still have no diagnosis that is recognized by my doctors or insurance. 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From 2 weeks after my adorable, little 14 year old dog Bruno passed I have awakened every morning to the song 'Natalie' by Bruno Mars as my ear worm. Long before I knew the lyrics I would surface awake with NATALEEE screaming me awake. This is weird too because the ME/CFS coming awake period transition is usually this: "Holy Fuck I hurt. I'm too tired to wake up. What fuckin time is it cuz I feel like I haven't slept at all and that truck hit me again during the night." So having Bruno Mars singing 'Natalie' to accompany that - well let's just say it made it a lot easier to take. Here they are doing the live version which I can't get enough of.<br />
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Chardale Irvine suffers from Myalgic Encephalomylitis commonly known as ME/CFS. She was struck down at the age of 35 with this illness which the US Government and Pharmaceuticals have minimized, trivialized and made a blatant move in 1990 to divert research funding, change case definitions from a physical illness to a psychosomatic mental illness and smear to ruin the reputations of any doctors or researchers who dared to pursue study or treatment.<br />
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To date it still is not recognized as a real illness, there are no specialists and treatment is not covered by insurance.<br />
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If you wonder about the abuses that are imposed on people by pharma I suggest watching the movies 'Dallas Buyers Club' and 'Constant Gardner' in quick succession. You will be changed.<br />
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-13208674687834483362014-04-11T01:50:00.001-04:002016-08-16T17:25:18.643-04:00Of Seemingly Endless Grief - The Bruno HandoffOn December 7, 2013 my little dog Bruno passed on here in Florida while I was in Utah trying to help my son Adam find his feet again after the stress of having his daughter Cadence taken 10 months earlier. <div><br></div><div>It was a difficult trip with a difficult goal that didn't play out quite the way we planned but in the end it got Adam back in play fighting the courts for his daughter.</div><div><br></div><div>I faced brutal criticism from my family while there and afterwards. Three people expressed their condolences. Otherwise there was silence. And the wash of guilt for not being there with Bruno in the end, after 14 years of his undying, hyperfocused attention and an energy field as big as a room. </div><div><br></div><div>Bruno was a Yorkie-Pom-Hairless Chinese created. </div>GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-7890230229950566522014-04-10T01:46:00.000-04:002014-04-10T13:38:02.906-04:00A Gypsy Girl: What Would I Say To Myself Age 1-5<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-15101052329013509612014-04-10T00:55:00.001-04:002014-04-10T00:55:31.999-04:00Kim's Upset Tummy RemedyFunny story here: our dog walker in New Smyrna Beach, Kim recommended this for our dog Bruno after he had a run in with a heart worm med that messed him up. He had diarrhea for too long. He hated this but Walt and I fell in love with it for desserts or snacks or...when our own tummies or guys are acting up. <div><br></div><div>And it tastes yummy too!</div><div><br></div><div>1 cup plain yogurt with active cultures</div><div>3 cloves chopped garlic </div><div>2 tablespoons coconut oil, grapeseed oil or olive oil</div><div>1 tsp real vanilla</div><div>Raw honey to taste</div><div><br></div><div>Add yogurt and vanilla to a large soup sized bowl.</div><div><br></div><div>Sauté the garlic in the oil over medium heat stirring til it just starts turning brown. Scoop garlic into yogurt mixture to cool it and stop it from cooking anymore. Stir well and add honey to taste. Serve immediately. </div>GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-83969282579739809492014-04-10T00:42:00.001-04:002014-04-24T12:19:59.167-04:00Chardale's Golden Milk for Pain<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-71521344147211443572014-03-28T04:56:00.001-04:002014-03-29T01:30:46.605-04:00We Share The Same SkyIt's okay Char. The tears are good. Look up. We share the same sky - your tribe and God and you and I.<div><br></div><div>They are strong, amazing people and parents. God is with them just as with you. Trust. Let go.</div><div><br></div><div>Your path is very, very narrow now for awhile. It isn't the first time. It won't be the last either. Remember to feel the hand of Jesus on your elbow as you've felt so many times before. </div><div><br></div><div>I know healing and repair seem irretrievable. Just keep praying. Stay in integrity. Never stop growing. It will come.</div><div><br></div><div>And those gold nuggets of connection - there are people out there doing that for your tribe too. Miracles happen every day for them too. </div><div><br></div><div>Forgive yourself for your failings as a mom. They can't forgive you until you forgive yourself.</div><div><br></div><div>And being Grandma - it's complicated sometimes and much less defined. You are a traveler who was raised by travelers. Who raised some people who might not be. Or some who aren't yet. You haven't traveled without thought or purpose but it makes collecting people challenging. </div><div><br></div><div>The illness- pain, fatigue, virus of the week, stigma that is M.E./CFS/Fibro - you carried the torch to the cure. You are almost there. </div><div><br></div><div>Write that book: I Suck At Grief. I'm okay with it - I think I am anyway. I sucked at grief too. My undeveloped gifts made the feelings too much. Too hard. That's a conversation we will have on the other side. </div><div><br></div><div>I love you beyond measure. </div><div><br></div><div>Love, Mom</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhm0dIAWIKlVASFE7ejgpoxSY31JvfMSBTfj578E21tSk4MeyJl1GnFon9c4SfoSetYvjUUfjBpCqzbvytLI0H7wadEeXl5emPDDm4eWDQU6pQr4QMnxo9acgLTJoJGuFg5rtIgjB5WxAA/s640/blogger-image-322829227.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhm0dIAWIKlVASFE7ejgpoxSY31JvfMSBTfj578E21tSk4MeyJl1GnFon9c4SfoSetYvjUUfjBpCqzbvytLI0H7wadEeXl5emPDDm4eWDQU6pQr4QMnxo9acgLTJoJGuFg5rtIgjB5WxAA/s640/blogger-image-322829227.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div>PS. Maury, Bruno, Chad and Jean say hi. Maury is a big strapping guy who looks a lot like your youngest sister. He's quite mischievous with that twinkle that you see in the Boys' eyes - always up to something. Chad is cool with Bentley's choice of seating. Jean thanks you for good intentions no matter what the result and just hopes you don't give up trying. </div><div><br></div><div>PPS. I visit the Rainbow Bridge every day. Bruno is happy to finally have a vacation. He plays a lot with Hank the cow dog and Tito but Jersey kind of keeps them penned in the corner sometimes. Willie still steps on everyone but he's much lighter up here so it doesn't hurt and everybody laughs. </div><div><br></div><div>Duke has really come out of his shell. Mimi is down the street digging in fresh trash every day. She's in heaven - literally:). Stetson has 43,212 leather gloves and 8 popped basketballs. Bruno sleeps on Stetson's back just like the old days and God lets him eat cat poop, but only once a week. Gizmo - he splits his time between me and this very nice Inuit man. (Yes there is snow in heaven but it's savagery stays on Earth). Sabrina is now the queen of everything. </div><div><br></div><div>They all wait on the Rainbow Bridge for their special humans. Hippie thinks Bruno is hot and he is a horn dog - so ya, you know where that's going. Bart and Scotch play with Ron 's labs - they chase sheep all day and they get a good Army tent to chew up once a month. Dave gets a fresh roll of toilet paper to disembowel everyday. Gus - well he was older than all the cats in heaven EVER when he got here so he is the old, codgy sage. He asked to be on the opposite side of the bridge from Dave. Lexi is by my side constantly. She, Cinnamon and Angel are best buds. </div><div><br></div><div>And the cockatiel wants nothing to do with you and has decided to cut all connections. He knows you understand;) He has recovered his tail feathers and has two working legs. </div>GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-6232262337102438142014-03-01T22:03:00.000-05:002014-03-01T22:03:08.250-05:00Gratitude<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-1591125244711535362014-02-21T03:18:00.001-05:002014-02-21T03:18:55.790-05:00ME/CFIDS Scam of the day: Call BS on the lazy A$$ name callers.<div>I'm not buying it and I'm not buying into hearing that it is something people should feel okay saying LET ALONE think it. </div><div><br></div><div>In the last year I have been called several brutal names by my family and also received inscrutable criticism at the hands of people I thought of as my support system. I have to say it has torn me up - just to the edge of still finding the will to keep plugging along in a life with too much pain and too little validation of that pain. Just at.The.Edge.</div><div><br></div><div>I have been called a chicken shit by my dad.</div><div><br></div><div>I have been told that my grandson deserves more than me because I'm not there to tickle his back or read him a story and then had access to him withheld </div><div><br></div><div>I have been told I don't try hard enough to be a grandma and I should use my 'lucid' moments trying harder. </div><div><br></div><div>I have been called a scammer by more than one person in my family, to my face and behind my back.</div><div><br></div><div>I have been called a drug seeker by medical providers with zero understanding of the complexities of my illnesses.</div><div><br></div><div>I have people who refuse to allow me to talk about my medical challenges so phone calls are few and far between because the one sided conversations never fully describe my current challenges.</div><div><br></div><div>I don't have HIV or Ebola virus. I have CFIDS/ME. I have had it for 18 years. It started on February 2, 1996. It struck me down at the age of 35 and destroyed my career, my health and my ability to care for my children. I am 53 years old now and the cause, treatment and cure are as far away as ever</div><div><br></div><div>When I became ill I worked full time and played on three recreational volleyball teams. I played pickup basketball at the park with the guys. I frequently took my kids on long hikes in the foothills of Boulder County. I was in awesome physical condition with an awesome life.</div><div><br></div><div>So if all the labels hold true I stopped my vivacious, passionate, healthy life to become a scammer. To make up day in and day out how much fatigue and pain i was experiencing. I quickly gained a lot of weight which gives people the perception i know nothing about how to stay fit or how to use healthy nutrition to fuel healthy living.And I've been scamming since then. Scamming to live at just the edge of poverty, having to leave my kids with their dad because I could no longer care for them. Scamming to acquire, at a minimum $3500 new medical debt per year even after the use of my top of the line government health insurance. I have sold 2 houses to relieve that in the past but there are no houses to sell now. And I keep accruing unavoidable and extensive medical debt each year. It's in the tens of thousands by now.</div><div><br></div><div>At the time I became ill there were no tests to indicate what the cause was but there are tests now. And strangely enough even with these ominous test results I am still considered a scammer by my family.</div><div><br></div><div>I somehow am able to conjure viral tests that show high titers across the board on subviruses that should be lower post infection. My immune system tests for chronic infection (IGg) is consistently low which means I can't fight long term subacute viruses or bacteria very well. I have a confirmed biopsy of herpes simplex 1 in my lungs which is called disseminated herpes and once it passes the brain/blood barrier it moves around to random weak spots and if it ends up in the brain it is usually fatal. It is very painful and extremely rare.My sleep studies have consistently shown for over 5 years that I get zero stage 3 and 4 sleep which are the stages when the body releases human growth hormone to repair tissues. I am frequently accosted by the virus of the week which takes me down for weeks. At altitude now my oxygen saturation bounces around so I have to wear oxygen which is apparently a free pass for anyone to comment about and ask how long I smoked. I didn't smoke. At.All. But apparently had I been a smoker it would mean that people would have a free pass to say the most rude and judgement comment possible.</div><div><br></div><div>I am such a scammer now that somehow I have figured out how to give my husband this same illness so that he too can feel ill every single day of his life with unrelenting pain, fatigue and immune system challenges so that he to can be the recipient of the horrific name calling. And these are from family. His family has been just as horrific as mine. </div><div><br></div><div>Imagine stretching that into the community and medical field and being told for decades that you're not really sick and that it is a mental illness or you're making it up. That shit wears ya down</div><div><br></div><div>I have fought so hard for validation from my family because I thought with their help I could keep fighting until there was a breakthrough in the cause and or treatment. These people, my supposed support system, function as the antithesis of a support system and finally I realized by giving them access to my heart and feelings they are contributing to breaking down my reason to live and keep fighting.</div><div><br></div><div>I do have now medical validation that I am truly ill but it still isn't enough for this critical, self absorbed family who have forgotten or never knew that the road to grandma's house and heart goes two ways.</div><div><br></div><div>We are so graced right now to have medical support to help us bumble along with finding health but they and I know it may be too late. Too many years of medical neglect and outright misdiagnosis and the use of the wrong drugs have left permanent injury for me. There may be still hope for my husband since his diagnosis is fairly recent but his impairment seems even harsher than my own. I can't even describe the depth of grief I feel to see what the illness has robbed from him. It is gut wrenching and heartbreaking.</div><div><br></div><div>It's a relief finally to not need my family to validate my experience but the injury left behind from years of failure to act as a support system will be hard healed. I have so little expectation for their depth of character. How else could it be when my own dad calls me a chicken shit and then refuses to apologize? It seems a bad omen and my mom isn't alive anymore to insist he make amends.</div><div><br></div><div>I have progressed into the crazy, oddball and rarely seen grandma role. You know - the one with the pink stripe in her hair, who marches her chubby self right into the ocean in a two piece suit, who sings out loud at any given moment and the one with the penchant for finding cool and unique tshirts at the thrift stores? She is me. I am her.</div><div><br></div><div>I'm the one who has just a bit to give and it will never be enough or equitable. Our only hope is acceptance and I've little hope for that. It is unlikely we will get close relationships with the magical grand kids and this is such a point of pain but I will not have them used as ways to reward or punish me for my participation which is ALWAYS affected by the limitations of my illness and NEVER equitable. </div><div><br></div><div>In the meantime, because we lack family support to do it for us, we are making arrangements for live in help because we can't take care of ourselves alone anymore. We are starting to get help with meals and transportation but its been tough because we fall in the gap of being just a bit too young and making a little too much money. </div><div><br></div><div>I am allowed to work still if I feel well enough but it has been over 5 years since I felt well enough to work. I am not sure it will ever come back.</div><div><br></div><div>I miss my family and the mountains with a deep and unrelenting pain but my lungs and psyche need clean ocean air around contemporary and advanced medical support. I'm not sure i will ever understand the ease with which these people in my tribe cast hurtful opinions and cast off any sense of obligation. I haven't decided if its a family illness or a cultural illness. Either way it has been devastatingly destructive. </div><div><br></div><div>I am graced to have one sister who is my undying ally and advocate. She was that even prior to knowing the whole story but after a recent crisis intervention meeting she shook her head and just said 'Wow, I just had no idea how complex the issues you're dealing with are'. I had asked my husband's brother too because I wanted for him the same kind of advocacy that I have. I'm not sure it's there or sustainable but either way it meant the world that these two came to help us out of our crisis.</div><div><br></div><div>There is an army of us previously voiceless sufferers of ME/CFIDS who now with portable technology are rising somewhat metaphorically from our beds and demanding acknowledgement. And treatment and validation. With between 4 and 10 million in just the US the potential for revolutionary change is on the horizon. I hope it comes in time for me and if not at least for my husband and niece. At that leaping off point.</div><div><br></div><div>To Walt, Bree, Glenna and all of you warriors - this post is dedicated to you. And to my Sisterla Sherone - you rock.</div><div><br></div><div>Peace be with you and all that jazz....</div><div><br></div><div>PS. Don't forget to sign up and follow Jenn Brea who is making a documentary about ME called. 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Flash forward to last night, 36 years later I FINALLY got to see the now 70 year old Barry Manilow in concert in Orlando, Florida and it was AWESOME. Hubs won tickets on the radio....105.9 Sunny FM....sweet seats in a Founders Box. The music was fabulous. Barry was fabulous. His voice hasn't lost a bit of its sweetness. He can still hold a note for 7 days straight. He is still a fabulous musician and he is still really funny.<br />
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Our seats were in a Founders' Box and we could stand up and move around which has become an essential part of any event including just going to a movie. We have to frequently change positions, from sitting to standing and frankly I'm on the verge of bring a cot with me everywhere so I can lie down too.<br />
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But Barry....oh Barry....he wasn't messed up at all and for a few moments in a few songs I was back in my younger days listening to that music, usually at a school or church dance, which I inevitably flowered the wall. Such is the life of a skinny, tall girl from the other side of the tracks in a teeny, tiny, rural Wyoming town. But the music....it was awesome, dancing or not.<br />
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Every time I get to see one of these old performers I feel grateful to get to see them one more time. These concerts though.....especially now that we are on disability and could never afford the tickets....they seem very opulent and I think that we (I) have been very spoiled in so many ways. There was a day when my former husband and I chose to use grocery money to go see REO Speedwagon and then later Bob Seger. Even while we were just scrimping by on tips and minimum wage. How did we do that?<br />
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So here is the Barry of yesterday - as in just yesterday....looking good dude and.....<br />
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<img alt="Barry Manilow performs at the Amway Center in Orlando, FL on January 20, 2011." src="http://www.trbimg.com/img/turbine/orl-ppl-barry-manilow-1d20110121053100/920" title="" /><br />
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Here is the Barry of 1978....<br />
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Not too shabby Barry. Not too shabby.<br />
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My hope and prayer is that a cause, treatment and cure are found for this awful illness that Walt and I have. And Barry reminds me of the message that always came from both my mom and my dad that music is a fundamental part of happy. So I sing every day. I hum to increase the nitrous oxide in my system. I sing Do-Re-Mi for respiratory therapy and I try to learn and record a new song every week.<br />
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I just know this: it is possible to be in incredible, unresolvable pain and still have fun. Happy is not a constant but it is usually found in song and laughter in my life. Especially laughter.<br />
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Mr. Manilow has started a foundation that gifts old and forgotten musical instruments to the schools around the US that have still, somehow, managed to hold onto their music programs. If you have an old, forgotten instrument in your attic or basement, even if it is broken, consider donating it to his foundation....for the kids......for the Barry Manilow in the second grade right now who needs that chance to shine. Here's the link: <a href="http://www.manilowmusicproject.org/" target="_blank">The Manilow Music Project</a><br />
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<em>Peace be with you and all that jazz.....</em><br />
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-62686142733509867792013-12-29T21:56:00.002-05:002014-03-29T01:20:56.469-04:00A testament to a friend - A Parable About a Giant<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Passing through China one day with a friend of mine I met
along the way. He is a giant, I guess that’s fair to say.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The load of life that is mine to bear, he
took from me, the heavy part always with an open heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Giants they say, often act this way, even on
days that are bleak and gray. He smiles that big toothy giant grin, even with
the load I’ve given him, he never shirks or complains.</span><br>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Giants they say always act this way, they have no choice,
because their hearts are pure in trust, and love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So each day they practice their Giants Creed,
to lend a hand if you can, to those of us they find along the way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even if we are small and they are Giants, the
lesson he teaches for us to follow, while the Giant precedes down the path with
the load I’ve given him to carry. It’s more than half that should be mine.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">In the formation of a Giant’s mind, you have to attend
Giant High, in a mountain valley town.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>To learn the lessons that are taught – to stand your ground, with your
toes to the very edge as if hanging there above the precipice below.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just you and your big, black friend, must
stand guard at the gate, and protect the Jewel within.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You must challenge that horrible ogre that
passes by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even if your friend is 10
times your size, it is your voice that they hear as you shout without fear.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">And now my little friend, I hope you have noticed that it
was always I that led the way wherever we went throughout the day, so you might
follow feeling safe and warm.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I stayed
with you longer than I should have, making your stands sure and good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I take my Giant Crown of Silver Crested
Hair, to leave you I must go before, to take my place in the Giants’ land, as
only we can understand.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So now with open arms, you must accept the serf’s load
that is theirs, as I have always done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Always to take that awesome position, to always be willing to take a
stand, and lead the way to another land.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I must proceed to clear the way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My Jewel, you will follow soon, someday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Remember the days we spent laughing as friends, always we went to the
next great event that was ours, to the fun things in life.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So now my little friend, I give to you, for awhile that
last big Giant’s grin.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once again I’ve
taken the yoke, to clear for you, the path to the land where pain has passed,
never to return again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So when you come
you can be sure that I and my big black giant friend, will be standing there,
to guide you within.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">You must stand as I have always shown you, with chest pushed
out and topknot flowing in the air. <b><i>The bravest thing the world has ever seen, has left to go beyond the screen. </i></b>Goodbye my little friend, look for me there
when you get within.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Your teaching friend,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">The GIANT, BRUNO<span style="mso-tab-count: 4;"> </span>(It
has to be awfully easy for a dog to get into heaven)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"> In memory of Bruno Irvine - the Yorkie/Pom/Hairless Chinese Crested</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"> Born: January 20, 2000</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"> Passed December 7, 2013</span></div>
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-31558524166724613542013-12-03T13:36:00.000-05:002014-12-22T01:03:37.701-05:00My Constant Source of Entertainment Is Now Only A Periodic Source of Entertainment<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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The story of why and how I married my husband is fun, well maybe funny, or strange, either way it happened long, long ago - well, 10 years ago - in Las Vegas, Nevada at 11:25 at night, the day after Christmas in 2002. We decided to get married on the drive from Richfield on our way to Mesquite, Nevada for a little golf junket. I think he asked me near Beaver, Utah...no, don't jump to conclusions! I said, "Sure, why not?". We stopped in St. George, Utah and bought wedding rings - it was Sunday, I think and not many stores were open. A helpful police officer pointed us to a store in the mall. <br />
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That story might be another post but it was on the drive back to my place in Richfield that the "constant source of entertainment" was set into motion. You see, somehow Walt had conned me into not doing the hanky panky thing prior to getting married. I'm not sure why I agreed to that other than that it was a new and novel experience for me to try. So I probably thought..."Hey, what the heck?"<br />
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So we go to Vegas. Get married. Drive back to Mesquite that night to stay in our crappy motel, too exhausted to move. But the next night....well, let's just say we consummated the marriage at the Barbary Coast...which is no longer in existence. We had a lovely room and made good use of it.<br />
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So then we are driving back to Richfield, giddy with excitement and kinda I'm sure wondering "What the hell did we just do?" In fact, I remember we stopped to eat poison food at Sonic in St. Geroge and I had that EXACT thought.<br />
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We get back on the road and just a few bites into the hamburger Walt turns to me and says - and I quote: "Honey, last night you made my eyes sore".<br />
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It was dead silent as all the air got sucked out of the car - as I slowly, much too slowly, processed what my new husband had just said. Much like how I have to do mental gymnastics to remember which side of the Rocky Mountains I'm on for directions (East I'm on the Wasatch Front, West I'm in Denver, all around me I'm in Richfield), or what is of the plant that grows on trees in Florida (in Colorado we had mistletoe and in Florida they have M.....(Mistletoe, no its that country that Walt didn't live in but my brother did....Oh yeah! Spain) Spanish Moss.<br />
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And BAM!! I figured out that what he was trying to say was "Honey, last night you were a sight for sore eyes". (If anyone sees a similarity to some of George W. Bush's comment...well, yeah...that's my life). So I say...."I think you meant to say...Blah". And he gets big eyes and stammers and I started laughing hysterically. And I kept laughing for 137 more miles, hysterically but off and on.<br />
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These kind of twisted commentary were frequent for years but that last couple...well things have been freaking HARD for us due to both of our health challenges so not much laughing has been going on. But today...he was back in rare form. <br />
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I was complaining about how little I get done now and just expressing my frustration about my loss of efficiency and focus (due to the ME/CFIDS/Fibro and the blasted knee injury) and my dear, dear husband says to me - and I quote:<br />
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"Honey, for the last three days your body has been revolting."<br />
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Yep.<br />
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Due to practice I process these tangled comments faster and I said - and I quote (while laughing so hard I'm almost passing out): "Uh...I think you meant to say "Honey, for the last three days your body has been in revolt"?<br />
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And he says "No, I said it right? For uh the last three days uh your body has been uh revolting." Long pause as he watches me gasping for air because I'm laughing so hard. "And I STILL said it wrong didn't I? Damn Autocorrect!"<br />
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Yep.<br />
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He is now though at 47 brownie points. Prior to that he had 50, for the first time in our marriage he's over 3 points. He went to 50 points a few days ago because I got to watch Lionel Ritchie's show TWICE (many thanks to DeeDra Sullivan for that tip). He lost three for the George W. imitation but still has some points to burn...which I promise he will. I'll let ya know on that.<br />
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GypsyMamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08540024178288662005noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3202953537717116420.post-53185443533872020732013-11-30T03:22:00.001-05:002016-08-16T17:31:20.855-04:00A Parable<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It is not okay to say "perhaps you should give up the fight til she's 18" when there are still legal options available to get the child back. Whenever you are tempted to say it stop. Ask yourself if right this minute someone said that about your kid, you know the one you fixed breakfast for and sent off to pre-school? If this kid was not allowed to come home by the government or school or anyone for that matter....if you heard that would your instinct be to wait until they were 18 to see the again.<br />
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It's not okay to say "you should stop hyper-focusing on the missing child because your child who is with you is suffering" unless you and those around you have done everything you can to be there and take care of this child that is there to allow the parent(s) to focus on finding the child..<br />
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It's not okay to say "maybe you should give up the fight" because you can't afford it" unless a large group of his or her support system is adding to the infrastructure that allows a parent to fight these arduous battles.<br />
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Because if your advice is taken we will look in the mirror every day and whip ourselves for letting the corrupt bastards take our child and grandchild. A child will grow up and when looking back will see that there was no fight for her. </div>
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